.__. Thanks… But like I said, as much as you guys care about me, I want the people who are around me to care like that too… Even if they say they care, I still feel like an annoying selfish burden to them. I feel like they just want me to quit the blubbering and get over myself already and just that thought alone hurts me more…
-curls in on myself- I’m sorry… It’s just, I always question if the people I love really care about me, because it just doesn’t seem like it… I feel like every little thing I do, I annoy someone, or piss them off or get in the way. I constantly think that people hate me and I’m nothing but a worthless piece of shit… Last night I didn’t want to wake my girlfriend for freaking out over something I don’t even know what I was freaking out over… All I had was my plushie to cuddle and FMA playing on my tv as a distraction..,
-crying- Thank you ;;__;; I don’t know what else to say that I haven’t already said to someone else, but thank you…
Thank you… You guys are so sweet… ;;__;; I honestly can’t stop crying and I’m on my way to work and people just keep looking at me and it’s so embarrassing… Maybe I wouldn’t be as upset if my friends decided to hang out without me and I get a text from my roommate saying my other roommate was mad because I didn’t hand over grocery money and I bought a movie instead, but when I actually had money and we were all home to go grocery shopping we didn’t go. And I’ve been going to the store myself and buying a few items for the house before I go into work because we can apparently never go when I’m home. So instead of going out someplace tomorrow after I get paid, I’m just going to sulk in the house like I do every night I’m off… .___.
Thank you… ;_; I’m glad that there’s someone I can talk to. I just feel so bad that I lay my problems on to someone else I don’t even know because I can barely talk to the people I actually live with… I told my girlfriend about my anxiety attack last night and she didn’t even ask if I was alright or comfort me in anyway besides giving me a quick kiss before leaving for work… So I don’t know anymore….
“Before the Milos Train Left, we had an interesting date.”
"Do you remember this?"
Honestly I am so done with this anime. \how do we go from
back to this
And then return to this
What next you ask?
BUT THERE IT IS AGAIN
IF YOU HAVNT SEEN THIS ANIME THAN KNOW THAT IT IS HONESTLY JUST THIS ENDLESS LOOP OVER AND OVER AGAIN